It’s MONDAY

 Blogger is getting harder and harder for me to sign into. One of these days I’m not going to be able to get in here. Any way I’m here now so I might as well make a post. 

So what have I been up to to. I’m still managing to crochet even with my numb fingers, so my table runn er is coming along nicely.

I am really liking the look of it. Considering I was given the cotton it’s turning into a lovely freebie.

I will try knitting one of these days. I know I’m repeating myself. It’s an easy thing to do when nothing much new happens in your life.

I do know there are some things on my wish list that I hope to do again one of these days. Ok I’ll share the wish list. I know you are sleepless with wondering what more could she want??? Well here is the list….

I want to rock a baby to sleep. I just love doing that, holding that precious bundle as they melt bonelessly into your chest, completely trusting that you will keep them safe, free from harm. It’s the best.

I want to sit in a bath, up to my neck in hot scented water and stay there until I have completely shrivelled into a prune from head to toe.

I want to eat fish and chips in Ireland one more time.

I have never done this but I want to, I want to take a rv and go on a long extended trip across country.

I want to take my own car and go for a drive.

I want to sleep in my own bed in my own room

I want to hold a needle and quilt a quilt

I want to take a trip where I have to go by plane

And mostly at the moment I would like to sleep for more than two hours at a stretch.

There is probably more but right now that’s the big list. It’s not a big ask is it??

Toodles Linda 

Bit of this, bit of that

 I have decided to get better at posting on here so this is me giving it a whirl. As usual I don’t have a lot to say but I thought I would get out some random thoughts , some positive and some not , just to say I’ve blogged. Here we go…….

Does it bother anyone else but me that some charities will send out over sized, custom printed solicitations stuffed with free gifts? I mean if you have all that money would it not be better served using it toward the charity? 

Feeling a little jealous these days, everyone has been holidaying, to the far east, to the states, to Europe, I have walked to the kitchen and to the bathroom.

I have been working on keeping my blood sugars down, eating healthier and doing more excersize. Slow and steady I have been gaining ground. I think I’m loosing weight as I have just realized my bra is not digging into me any more. I am taking this all as a win on my behalf.

The banker is steadfast in making her weekly visits and lately we have been cooking meals for me but currently we have been working on the disaster area which is my craft room. Progress is slow because I can only sit on a hard chair for so long but it’s progress none the less.

We got a good start on it at least. It’s my room of shame. It’s an easy place to dump things one does not know what to do with.

I have ordered a bunch on pictures for scrapbooking, I have fallen way behind on my scrapbooks and I am determined to get caught up again. I want to use all my new die cuts. So I got my pictures and yesterday I go them all sorted and put into months so once I get going it will be easy to do. I also want to make an index of all my die cuts. 

I have a couple of kitting project I want to do. I can’t wait for my carpel tunnel thing to go away so I’m going to knit in spite of it. I also have a crochet project it want to keep doing. I don’t think I can quilt but dang it I have to do something or I’m going to go completely mad.

Well I think that is it for now. Hopefully I will be back again soon.

Toodles, Linda 

The last four months

 It has been the best

It has been the worst

I’ve cried, I’ve raged

I’ve accepted, I’ve cursed

I’ve gone back to square one

Time and again

But I really thought

This time was an end

Not so, just a knock back

Just another over the last four years

My world gets even smaller

It will never end, my deepest fears

Thanks to my family

And all my good friends

I’m just bent but not broken

This is NOT how it ends.

spring is in the air

 Just sitting here looking out at the sun shine and thinking soon I shall be able to sit on the veranda and have my coffee of a morning. I love love love to do that. My veranda is my most favourite place in the world.

Something I have noticed lately about myself is I’m making plans, something I have not done in a very long time. Plans for crafty things, plans for changes in the house,  lots of these plans with never be more than daydreams but the fact that I am doing this again is a giant leap forward in my mental health. It’s a sign to me that I am getting on top of my depression. Oh happy day,

I have started to make a tray cloth for my walker. I’m stitching it all by hand while it sit and listen to the tv. It just needs to get quilted.

Then that spurred me on to come up with the brilliant plan to recover some pouches I use to store my tools I need for scrapbooking. I originally made the pouches using material I had but it was not the cutest, personally I think they are ugly. So I am going to slip cover them. I have one done

Then I ordered up this little guy to knit. I think he is so cute. He is for me, I’m having my second childhood. I bought a teddy bear at Christmas, the house hippo after that and now Mr Bunny Rabbit. 

Yesterday, the banker was here for our usual coffee date, she helped me and we set up a spot for me to scrapbook. When I say she helped my I mean I thought where everything should go and she did the actual moving. I have a new big shot die cutter that I can not wait to try out. I’m behind on my scrapbooking so this afternoon, between loads of laundry I will give it a go. My head is full of page layouts. 

I’m still working on the baby blanket, it’s going to use up the last of the pink yarn I was given. 

 

I also feel so much more like my old self, I’m not lost in a fog where so many simple things feel so overwhelming. It’s like doing out of a long tunnel and into the light. I’m not going to say I’ll never have a bout of depression again, but for now I’m happier than I have been in ages. I fell more like me and I like this me. 

 Toodles Linda 

Not as expected

 Today is not quite going according to plan. It started out right but I have gotten derailed. Let me catch you up, the morning started out on plan. I woke,  made my to do list, had home care come and go and then I got started on the list. Job one I took down the decorations that I had put up for Friday.

I had the No Cooks to my house for a little St.Patrick’s Day supper. We ordered in Chinese food and played trivia, just basically had a fun filled evening. Lots of laughs and good natured ribbing. I think I should invite them over more often. It does me a world of good to have them around. Plus they bring cookies!

Here is where the train jumped the track. I picked up a book that I had ordered awhile ago but it flitted through my mind, I maybe had bought it before. So I thought I’ll just read a few pages to see if it is the same book. Well 74 pages later I was finally able to get my nose out of it. It’s a very good read so far and no it’s not the same one I thought it was. Derailed! Woman overboard! Doomed!! Well maybe not quite doomed. I have high hopes to at least get a few things off the list before I go to sleep tonight.

I did not plan to blog today but here I am. I also did not plan to sort some paperwork today but I did that as well. I think that counts as much as the list of jobs I made for myself this morning.

I finished the little pink blanket I was knitting. I knit it on my fancy interchangeable knitting needles. I bought these some time ago and tried to knit with them but I could not for the life of me make them stop unscrewing and snagging my yarn. I put/pitched them into a corner and chalked the whole thing up to wasted money. Not the first time I have done that. Well I was watching one of my favourite crafty pod cast “the Crafty Toads” and they were showing how to use the key to tighten the needle tip onto the cord. The heaven’s opened and the angels sang. I found my needles, knit the entire blanket without the things getting unscrewed once! I love them, (the toads) the needles and my finished blanket. I have not blocked it yet, as soon as I do I will take a picture to share.m

I have a list of projects in my head and things in the house already in the queue to be attended to. Days when I am in a funk are not so frequent as they were. I still have blue times but I am hoping with time and with understanding they will lessen and not take over my whole being as they did, there is always hope. You just have to keep moving forewarn as best to can and celebrate the big and the small.

Toodles, Linda 

It’s Friday

 Friday does not have the same appeal as it did when I worked but I still can appreciate the anticipation of the coming weekend. I have currently been deep into my Friday morning routine. This I’d how it goes in my house of a Friday.

I usually laze about until just before home care arrives to do their thing. I get my self organized to face the day just in time for them to arrive. When I see them pull up I submit the order for my guilty weekly   pleasure, my McDonald’s breakfast. It will arrive shortly after the ladies have moved on. While I am munching on breakfast the other deliver shows up. My meals for seniors which contains three meals, salads, buns and a couple of dessert things. You know like cookies, pastries and a square of some sort. I will then indulge in a dessert with my coffee and throughly enjoy it. Once I am stuffed like a tick I will get out my knitting, tune into one of my favourite crafty pod casts “the Crafty Toads “ and I will knit while I listen to their live broadcast. That’s the routine.

Right now I am studiously ignoring the disaster zone that is my kitchen and blogging instead. I will get to it as it very much needs a seeing to.  Right now I am content to be in the living room, looking out at the sunshine glinting off the snow. Mother Nature had a nasty mood swing this past week and decided to give us a winters worth of snow all at once. Girl needs to calm down.

My little knitted blanket is coming along nicely. It’s a lot of stitches because the yarn is so fine but I’m loving working on it. 

I have also finished the little pink fuzzy blanket I was making. I think I will add it to my donate pile, the woman’s shelter can always use blankets.

I went mad this last little while and bought myself a big shot. It’s. a die cutter for scrapbooking. Rather expensive but I got it anyway. I saved for it and I have wanted one for quite some time. 

I feel a solitary scrapbooking event in my future. 

I also bought myself a house hippo. Does  any one remember the house hippo commercial that used to be on tv. YouTube has it if you don’t. I just thought this little guy was too cute and was really cheap. So now she lives with me. Meet Heloise.

Well I guess I should put an end to this blog and think of other things on my list that need my attention. So many things, so little ambition.

Toodles Linda

This and that

 It’s been a busy day so far, well at least busy for me. Home care has been and gone (this maybe be TMI) so I have a new catheter and bag, new wound dressing and am dainty fresh and clean. I have had two deliveries and a text chat with the Banker. In spite of the never ending laundry and the mess that is my kitchen I have been knitting, reading and watching tv until now when it dawned on me I have not blogged for a minute or several.

I’m having a bit of cabin fever these days, been inside for far too long. However I am in no rush to go out because getting about is difficult for me and as the past has proven I usually end up on my butt and the nice 911 guys have to be called to get me up. Not a situation I am thrilled with so I’ll avoid it in the future as much as I possibly can.

No word on my surgery date yet, probably not until mid march. I really will do a happy dance once I get a date. I am thinking of starting a list of all the things I want to do once Eunice has been evicted (Eunice is the name of the curse that my surgery will evict). Oh so many things that I am looking forward to. Getting out and about, driving myself somewhere, sleeping in my bed are just to name a few.

Nothing else to share. House bound does not make for a chatty blog. Hope all is well with the three people that read this. I’m good, I really am, I just like to grump.

Toodles Linda 

slacking again.

 

Every time I think I am going to get back to blogging on a regular basis I fall off the wagon and once again turn into my own worst enemy. Not to mention that when I finally get around to actually sitting down at my keyboard any notion of what I was going to blog about flies right out of my head. I swear these past few years I have not felt like myself. I miss feeling like myself. I have to get back there I just am not sure how I am going to do it

Oh dear, pity party, table for one please! Well I’m not going down that rabbit hole. Let’s see if I can find something else to talk about. Let’s seee, I have done all the testing that was required for my surgery approval, but they moved to goal posts again. Now it’s got to be approved by health services for the province and that answer is at least six weeks away. Crap crap crappity crap. I’m not feeling sorry for myself I am just frustrated that I was not told all this from the beginning. 

I am working on getting the house back in to shape, things got a bit neglected over the holiday season but I’m aware and making the effort to get it back under control. Housework never ends.

I have finished my little baby blanket that I was knitting ,just have to put the edging on it. That’s the last of the three handicrafts I was working on, so now I  can start something new. I have two things in mind but I’m not going to share until I actually have something to show. It’s a secret.

My scrapbooking pals are going to do three days of scrapping next weekend. I,m still not able to go but I think I am going to scrapbook along with them here at home. I am very behind and I want to get caught up. I am mulling over the idea of buying myself a new scrapbooking toy. I have saved up the money for it I just have to convince myself I really need it. Yes I know people don’t think I do that but I do once in awhile.

That’s all I got for now! 

Toodles, Linda

New year and new hopes

 I still have my Christmas decorations up but they are going to come down before the week is over. The fact is I like looking at them and I am in no rush to say good bye to them for another year. I wish I had put the whole deal up this year but when I go to put it away I bet I will be glad I didn’t.

I finished my hexagon stocking, I almost totally pleased with it.

I do not care for the background being so dark. I would like it to be more of an oatmeal colour, whiter is what I am trying to say. I think I will add this one to next years donation basket and make myself another one it the colours I want. I bought the yarn online so you never know for sure what you are going to get.

 

I am also knitting teeny tiny toques to make a garland out of. I think they are so cute. These just need,,j pompoms on them. I need 10 for the garland and currently have five made. I also want to knit myself a big squishy sweater and maybe make a lap quilt. I love that I am getting more and more interested in creating.

I also finished a book today. I have not done that for awhile. So my interest in crafts and reading is coming back to me. That makes me happy.

Toodles, Linda